Saturday, April 19, 2014

Willing To Go the Distance

How far are you willing to go; As far as the river flows?
Are you willing to go the distance?

To foresee the pain, agony and frustration that life brings; oh’ now you hear the bells ring?
Walkin around like you got everything in order to only see your world tumble, flip and turn upside down
But you foresaw it you say… with your man made binoculars you can’t even see what’s in your way?
There is too much at stake there is no time to lay
You can no longer stay in the wilderness but yet you’re too proud to confess
Are you willing to go the distance?
Pride, envy, gluttony, lust, anger, greed, sloth in this world you act as if wrapped in this loincloth
Naturally warm but spiritually cold why can’t you see the enemy’s plan unfold
Tip toeing his way in your life, tearing your life up with his knife often filling you heart with strife
You need to escape but how far are you willing to go?
To set yourself free as you decree
To break the chains that hinders any change
To tear the veil that obstructs your vision
How far will you go to make a change instead of completing this worldly exchange?
Are you willing to go the distance?
What are you willing to sacrifice… come on be precise
For this action is the only way to make it right
I know you’re tired, I know you got fired
I know you want him to pay, your world just seems grey
But I’m telling you there is another way       

But are you willing to go the distance?

Wednesday, April 10, 2013

Have you forgotten me?


I am hot…
I sweat…
I’m surrounded feeling Closter phobic
I’m trapped!
Short of breath on the verge of suffocating is this thin atmosphere 
I need to get out!
Unable to unbutton this overcoat
I am a man trapped in another man’s body
I am being starved to the point of desperation
Have you forgotten me!?
This over layer on top of me is taking in all the food without sharing
The one who is feeding him has forgot all about me
Have you forgotten me!?
Alone and weak I lay here
Unable to die but feeling the life being drained from me
Have you forgotten me?
Why do you starve me?
Do you even know that I am here?
Do you hear me!
You are hurting me!!!
Your Spirit is crying out to you!!!
Feed me!
Read to me!
Connect with me!!!
Will you harken unto my voice?
Will you nurture me back to health?
Or have you just…
Forgotten me…..

Thursday, February 2, 2012

Her Name Is…
Let’s see…

Serene like the calmness of the waves of the sea?

Irascible like an active volcano?

Strong like a rock?

Weak as a small tree branch?

Sneaky and conniving?

Peculiar… strange; queer; odd yeah that defines her.

This girl I guess you’re wondering who she is…

So would I

On earth facing the things the world wants to throw at her

Incases her heart in a safe; she awaits for the one with the key

Unaware of the key barrier in front of her

She walks in loneliness 

How long will it be until she feels the fullness of Love she wonders?

Lifting her eyes to the sky she cries how long will I be fed these lies!?

On her knees she falls holding on to the last piece of herself that hasn’t been stolen; as the darkness starts to consume her.

Looking up for the last time… A shimmer of light starts to glimmer as it pushes away the clouds of sorrow and unhappiness

A hand extends out… as she reaches out to grab begins to be pulled back by the pain over the years

But she hears

“Trust me”

As she grabs on to hope not loping around in darkness

Looks up upon the face of the key barrier.

What is so special about this certain person you may wonder?

The heart that was once lock away in pain has been released in Serenity.

Monday, November 28, 2011

   These Mirrors
…………….
I can’t stand to look at this person that stands before me…
This mirror shows a reflection of deformed figure
So many times have I looked in this smudged mirror...
Afraid to wipe clean my passed
Oh how I used to stand tiptoed to see my face
Overwhelmed with joy when I saw the crown of my head
But now it is a distant memory that has faded 
Just one glance puts me in so much pain
Instead of a reflection of myself I see this man
A angry man who cares for no one
Over and over do I hear his voice in my head
I find myself becoming more and more like him
This mirror is a constant reminder of my past
To reminisce on happy days
To remember a time I saw a happy soul in the mirror is vaguely imprinted in my memory
If I can only find the strength to look at who I am now
To look at my true self
I’m so tired of living in this content reminder of my passed…
Oh God help me face myself!
To wipe clean my regrets!
Lord show me my true reflection……  

TAKE ME BACK

TAKE ME BACK


Joy, peace, tranquility, LOVE
All these things I have
Oh the feeling of security in His presents
Here I am in my youth smiling every time the sun comes to shine just for me
Oh this Life of mine
But… in all this bliss I feel as if there is something missing in this life
Pondering on this..
I see myself
Walking down this path I have set myself upon I find myself the only one walking
No one to share my life with
I feel alone; I need someone alive in my presents
I need to feel that heartbeat
Nothing fills this spot
Money, Friends, Drugs, Alcohol
Nothing works…
Nothing satisfies me
At this point I am too far away
I can no longer feel the presents from before; I can only see it from afar.
The things that never satisfied my hunger are now lingering and blocking my view
I WANT TO GO BACK
I WANT TO FEEL HIM AGAIN
I WANT EVERYTHING THAT I LOST BACK
NO LONGER DO I WANT THIS IMATATION OF LOVE GIVING ME THINGS I CANT HOLD ON TO
THESE THINGS ARE BEATING ME DOWN
LORD BRING ME BACK!
TAKE ME BACK TO THE PLACE OF PEACE
WHERE THERE IS NO NEED FOR WORRY
Lord be my everything…..

Thursday, August 11, 2011

Dream To Reality


What a gloomy day
I sit in this crowded room in the dark all alone
With the blinds down no ray of sunlight enters to cut through the darkness
In my room I lay; staring at the ceiling in constant daydream
Dreams are all that keep me going
The hope of that dream coming true
Oh how I dream
Some may say they are impossible also improbable
But is it so crazy to dream?
A dream holds hope
The things I want to be, what I want to do even who I want beside me.
Dreams are what keep me going
But I can’t help but to keep wondering, when will this dream end and become a reality?
Reality; something that is hard for a dream to transform into
To be lost in a daydream is to lose track of time
To sit there lost in a world of desire
A perfect day, a world with no boundaries, the sun shining bright, a calm breeze, a wide open beach with waves that brush themselves upon the sands of time
Yeah that’s the scene
Walking along the beach alone, seeing this perfect world of my own.
I look in front of me; a set footprints have been imprinted into the sand along the shore
The waves are starting to erase the only life sign in this world of mine
Running along the beach I see an image from afar
My heart races and my thoughts race, could it really be someone her in this lonely would of mine?
As I run up to this person; I tap her on the shoulder
As she slowly turns
Her face looks as if confused
Then a smile appears that warms my very soul
As we walk along the beach our hearts begin to mend together
I feel a clench in my hand as I look down
I look at my hand that was tightly squeezed
And to my discovery I found out what was holding on to me
A soft and gentle giving hand
Not weak but strong as she clenches onto my hand
A promise was made
And as we look at our footprints; deep in the sand they stay as the waves try to brush them away.
Looking into each other’s eyes we gaze at the soul
And found what was lacking but now what will stay forevermore.
I suddenly awake from that dream
Looking out my window wishing this dream will become my reality.
 
   

Some Say


Some say Life is worth living…
But I don’t see how…
They say I have plenty of time…
But lately time has been passing me by.
Why should I cling to this life that is now empty?
Some say do want you want, say what you want it doesn’t matter.
So why should I care?
The dreams that I once carried have now slipped from my fingers and have fallen beyond my reach.
I have nothing to live for…
Some say they are here for you but yet they leave.
Some say you can trust them but yet stab you in the back.
The words that come out of these mouths are just word to comfort for a short time.
Where can I find someone whose words are grounded in truth?
Hmmph.
Some say they can heal a broken heart.
Some say they can provide everything that I need.
But the things that they promised I have yet to receive.
Empty words do not comfort a heart.
But I have heard of one’s words
Words that other people have heard
Words that have healed the broken hearted
Comforted the lonely
Lifted spirits
After reading and hearing these words
My heart has been mended
My mind free
My spirit no longer bound
I have found the one whose words have cut through the chains that have held me bound
He is my Jehovah-Jireh my provider
My Jehovah-Rapha my Healer
And my Jehovah-Shalom He is my Peace
Some said true Love doesn’t exist
I say He is Love.