These Mirrors

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I can’t stand to look at this person that stands before me…

This mirror shows a reflection of deformed figure

So many times have I looked in this smudged mirror...

Afraid to wipe clean my passed
Oh how I used to stand tiptoed to see my face
Overwhelmed with joy when I saw the crown of my head
But now it is a distant memory that has faded 

Just one glance puts me in so much pain

Instead of a reflection of myself I see this man

A angry man who cares for no one

Over and over do I hear his voice in my head

I find myself becoming more and more like him

This mirror is a constant reminder of my past

To reminisce on happy days

To remember a time I saw a happy soul in the mirror is vaguely imprinted in my memory

If I can only find the strength to look at who I am now

To look at my true self

I’m so tired of living in this content reminder of my passed…

Oh God help me face myself!

To wipe clean my regrets!

Lord show me my true reflection……  

TAKE ME BACK

TAKE ME BACK

Joy, peace, tranquility, LOVE

All these things I have

Oh the feeling of security in His presents

Here I am in my youth smiling every time the sun comes to shine just for me

Oh this Life of mine

But… in all this bliss I feel as if there is something missing in this life

Pondering on this..

I see myself

Walking down this path I have set myself upon I find myself the only one walking

No one to share my life with

I feel alone; I need someone alive in my presents

I need to feel that heartbeat

Nothing fills this spot

Money, Friends, Drugs, Alcohol

Nothing works…

Nothing satisfies me

At this point I am too far away

I can no longer feel the presents from before; I can only see it from afar.

The things that never satisfied my hunger are now lingering and blocking my view

I WANT TO GO BACK

I WANT TO FEEL HIM AGAIN

I WANT EVERYTHING THAT I LOST BACK

NO LONGER DO I WANT THIS IMATATION OF LOVE GIVING ME THINGS I CANT HOLD ON TO

THESE THINGS ARE BEATING ME DOWN

LORD BRING ME BACK!

TAKE ME BACK TO THE PLACE OF PEACE

WHERE THERE IS NO NEED FOR WORRY

Lord be my everything…..